Come Back With Me

I’m sorry I’ve been so distant
Wallowing in the marsh of perpetual stress
Held by the world under endless duress.
I forgot that I wasn’t alone
You’re out there juggling my problems
Struggling in your own time to solve them.
We have both been remiss
Neglecting happiness for another’s satisfaction
Denying what calls to our attraction.
I want to let you in again
The layers of my mind peeled back once more
I bare myself and expose my core.
Only with you I share me
I plead be careful of my vulnerable state
I’m back and benevolent and easy to break.

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A Poem for MSA 2011

It broke my heart that day,

Watching you all walk away,

Stepping into the car, driving away

It wasn’t the place, no –

It wasn’t the time, no –

Any other year, any other hall

They could have had us meet

And still captured us all

It was the world they showed us

It was what they could see

It was the broken cages around us

That’s what set us free

I can’t believe the words, the phrases,

That rocked my world those weeks

The summer that left our faces

With countless tears on our cheeks

It wasn’t the place, no –

It wasn’t the time, no –

There wasn’t one single thing

That gave way to the ground below

And set us away on wings

We were taught more than just facts

We were taught how to think

And though we received our wings

We were warned not to sink

And so, my friends, months have passed

Since we last held another

We hoped and prayed the time wouldn’t last

Until we were again sisters and brothers

But I beg you not to falter

No matter how long you’re away

Your cup has only so much water

And you must watch where you sway

Don’t forget the world you were given –

You were gifted with the truest of sights

And though the world tells you to stop living

Be that kid who keeps up all hours all nights

Searching for the truth – what’s right

And don’t give up, don’t ever give up

And don’t let your dreams leave your sight

Don’t go counting crayons –

You can’t win that game

But missing what you can’t have

And having what you won’t miss

That’s really all the same

Just start drawing pictures

Take the world you’ve got

Whether it’s ‘perfect’ or not

Because you’ve got the power

The first grader inside of you

Build something beautiful

You know you’ve got it –

Or maybe it’s got you?

I once was that kid

The one who never shuts up

About his school, his life

His boundaries that just keep coming

But I finally woke up

I saw the world as it is –

Not with stop signs or bumps or walls or dead ends

But with challenges to take

To learn from

To use

And those, my friends, are life’s greatest crayons

The things with which you have to mesh and blend –

Because where would we be

If Eminem stopped in Detroit?

Or if Ray Charles never touched the keys?

Or if Bill Gates gave up after college?

Or if you stopped, and decided you couldn’t contend?

Just another person

Wishing they had more crayons.

Guarded

Must I speak in poems for you to hear me
Or do you ignore me intentionally
I left out punctuation so you could criticize
With your critical gaze and concrete eyes
Is that what it’ll take to earn recognition
Do you find that finding faults is your greatest mission
I don’t mind being wrong to learn what is right
You should cast away pride and take on this sight
To see that I care not for your amendments
Or your inconsiderate comments
I only wish that you would take the time
To notice that you’re the rhythm to my rhyme
For I can see beyond your cynical mask
You have a heart a soul and a broken past
I can pick up the pieces and bring you home
Because just like you I too am alone

My Time

How silly I must look

Entirely unbalanced and

Teetering on the precipice of life

With these legs made of rubber

Unable to support these arms of lead

And an empty heart

Incabable of leading this bursting mind

Would it really be so bad if I just

Fell

Then your hand grips my arm

Bringing balance to my life once more

And your eyes find mine

Encouraging me to live

And your heart

Your heart

Is what inspires me to save others

From slipping through the cracks

As you did for me

Tick.

I will hold you down.
I am your limits.
I keep you from your dreams
I am what you race against
I am who keeps you from immortality,
You beg me to run by faster
You beg me to slow down
You beg me to stop
You dream of manipulating me
You dream of tying me down
And subjugating me as another of your tools
But I am the ethereal substance around you
Untouchable, invisible, and yet you feel me
I am the shadow that guides you by hand to your grave
And when you look your last
You will see my smile
And know that I still march on.

Caged

Is this how I am to be?
Shackled – afraid – alone?
Locked within the human mind
Left to be touched only by the mad
And revered, but lost, to the kind?

I was once the pinnacle of greatness
I gave you all of your worldly desires
Now you cast me away to the insane
The artists, the poets, the liars

As time wears away and you grow old
Your mind’s great wealth of power
Will begin to wither away and die
And it is upon that single hour
That you will pursue the lie

And you will know that you cannot
For I was tossed away long ago
Broken like your brittle bones
And like a beast, you left me so

No, you did not keep me
So I shan’t keep you
And don’t beg for my return
When your days are through

The Storm

I see the ominous, foreboding clouds
Congregating at the edge of the horizon
As you approach me upon this rocky precipice.
Your gait,
Sharp like the wind that whips mercilessly around us,
Betrays your reason for meeting me here
On this late summer’s eve.
I brace myself for what is to come,
What is to transpire,
Between us this night.
I don’t want this to end,
To cease,
To fade into oblivion,
As I know it will.
Soon, all too soon,
You are standing in front of me.
Your eyes,
The color of the sapphire sea
That extends before us,
Transpierce even the shadows of my soul.
Suddenly,
Lightning illuminates the indigo sky
And exposes the raw expression of fear and confusion
That I wear upon my face.
Where is the truth
That once lay between us?
To where has it fled?
I want to know.
Yet you don’t tell me.
Instead,
You simply shake your head,
And before I can realize,
You have departed from me,
Have left me alone on this cliff
As the first raindrops cascade down my cheeks
And blend with my trickling tears.